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I'm totally drained writing this. It's just after midnight and me and Mustang girl just got back from the Vets. We put our dog down tonight. One of the hardest things about owing a pet is not picking up after it, or feeding it all the time, taking it out for walks or washing it. The hardest thing about owning a pet is laying it down and watching it take it's last breath as you hold it and watch a part of your life go with it. I've never been through something like this before, but it was like loosing a child. This dog was Mustang girls family dog from her Mom and Dad. Her mom died in 94 and the dog went to her dad. Her dad died in 97. This dog was all she had left of her family. The feeling of powerless to watch the tears of pain run down her face and know I could do nothing but watch and hold her. As the vet slowly injected the serum into Tanner's arm the room was real silent and with in seconds, Tanner took a deap breath and he was gone. As we said our last good byes to old tanner, we left him there at the vet and quietly drive home. We started talking about the good times with that dog. Tanner had a full life of 13 years with Her and her family. All that she has been through with him. Memories with her and her dad with Tanner. Sure help for the ride home and eased the pain some. Then pulling up to the house it hit all over again. Memories come rushing back as if nothing had happen. Like Tanner was going to be at the door waiting for us when we opened it. But he was not. You can smell tanner throughout the house, his bowls still there by the frig. His blanket by the door. As each day passes, this feeling will ease. For if you ever love something with all your heart, know that one day, you'll have to let it go Thanks for taking the time guys...... R.I.P. Tanner, you where the best dog ever.
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Going to XV+ and beyond :) Yellow Z STAGE II
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03:58:13 11/22/03
